What happened?

Sometimes I miss you, talking to you and being with you. Nobody could ever kiss me like you did but life now tears apart making us head in different directions; in search for people to fill the gaps we dug on each other’s hearts. I don’t want you thinking I’m unhappy, I’m just doing well not because I’ve moved on but because the fire of resilience still burns bright inside of me. I don’t want you to love me again, neither will I ever love you but how can I tame this nubile heart. It has taken a vow to love you forever. I just don’t think I’ll ever get over you. I don’t miss you, I miss all those moments we were in together. It still kills me and makes me wonder how could we end so unexplained. I could persuade you again but it will only keep me in vain. Funny how life turns out to be. What if I move on? Is that really possible? I loved you so much it hurt but now it’s all forgotten and we don’t even talk anymore. I’m not hurting myself now but there is something wrong with the working of my life. I don’t know if I’m ready for another relationship because no one can take care of me like you do. I have a girl who is a friend with benefits (she’s pretty cool but I don’t know if she could be my other half), I have this crazy ” best friendship” with Bhavna and only God knows what it will bring. I am in the throes of a ill fated love story. So strong yet so fragile.